Mars

Hi, The point (if there is a point) of this blog is to post liner notes and playlists of mix CDs originating from moi and hopefully fanning out into a chain of mix CDs. If you get a CD from me, make me and a friend one, and email me some liner notes and I'll post them. Then your friend should make you and someone else a mix CD etc etc. Maybe it will work PS If you want to be on my knit list, let me know what you want and I'll see what I can do!

Sunday, August 13, 2006

Guilty as charged

Do you feel guilty? I feel guilty about so many things that I think guilt is a permanent state of being for me. Here are all the things that make me guilty:

  • Not spending enough time with my son
  • Not spending enough time at work
  • Not having the same things my son's friend's families have
  • Being an inattentive daughter, sister and friend
  • Living away from my family
  • Wanting to move near my family
  • Using up too many natural resources by having air conditioning, throwing away food and having too much stuff
  • Perpetuating sexism, racism and discrimination by not calling people out on tasteless jokes or remarks
  • Perpetuating sweatshops and bad working conditions by not seeking out ethical products or by being cheap
  • Bitching about other people
  • Having a shitty car
  • Not working out enough
  • Spending too much money
  • Being fat
  • Caring about being fat
  • Being too lazy
  • Spending too much time doing housework
  • Not dating
  • Having a libido
  • Acting like a submissive girlie
  • Being boring I know these make no sense at all, and that feeling guilty is pointless, but yet, I am. Of course, I feel guilty about my feelings of guilt.

    I do feel a little less guilty about the number of shoes I own. My God, I am a neophyte compared to some of these women, owning maybe twenty-five pairs. I figure in North Carolina, you have to have a lot of shoes - a good collection of sandals for the summer, and good winter shoes too, that can handle ice. Of course, I have huge feet, which might temper any shoe addiction I might have. I have a hard time embracing high heels, which would make me six feet plus.

    This whole terror plot that was foiled this week is fascinating to me. Here is a really interesting article about the roots of European Muslim extremism - basically a push-pull between two radically different cultures, mixed with poverty and discrimination, that affects second and subsequent generations Muslims. It certainly highlights to me that a war in Iraq does nothing to combat terrorism, and that perhaps addressing the socio-economic concerns that breed a generation who feel sufficiently disconnected from both their home country and their parent's ideology to embrace such extremism might.

  • 12 Comments:

    At 1:18 AM, Blogger Phil said...

    Hugs to you, dearie. And some applause soon thereafter. (You can't do both at the same time. Or at least, not well.)

    By coincidence, tonight my friend Hilary and I were talking about the heroism of single motherhood, and the sad fact that such mothers are too often pitied or disparaged instead of being praised or having their good habits emulated.

    And you DO have good habits, miss. Pardon me for threatening your established state of mind, but it ain't just the one of me who thinks you rock in this world of multiple, challenging, and conflicting demands.

     
    At 1:03 PM, Blogger pinky pinkerson said...

    I am guilty about many, many things.

    Luckily my large collection of mostly-unworn shoes does not inspire me to feel so bad.

     
    At 3:25 PM, Anonymous Stew said...

    Guilt: a little bit of it can be a good thing. A lot will get you down. I think that at times guilt can be a motivator. If you overdo it, though, you suffer longer and harder than is strictly necessary.

    This morning I was feeling guilty about not having much in common with my dad. Why? Seriously, do you have to enjoy spending time with each of your relatives? No. And then I felt guilty that I hadn't spent all that much time with him. But when I called him today to do something he didn't call me back for ages. And then he told me he was going out of town. So really, I worried and felt guilt this morning for no good reason.

     
    At 9:02 PM, Blogger mykull said...

    i eat guilt for breakfast, lunch, dinner, and a midnight snack. then i belch guilt. but it still won't go away. ever.

    mostly i feel guilty for not being just like jesus christ. who i think i don't even believe in. which makes me feel guilty.

     
    At 9:04 PM, Blogger mykull said...

    p.s. next time you are feeling overwhelmed with guilt, come on over and we'll drown our cares away in alcohol.

     
    At 10:28 PM, Blogger minty said...

    Let me see if I've got this straight, mykull: alcohol as a cure for guilt, and pot as a cure for murderous rage. What if I've got both?

     
    At 11:26 PM, Blogger mykull said...

    i feel guilty for suggesting the use of pot and alcohol.

     
    At 6:34 AM, Blogger Marianne said...

    If you cured the murderous rage first then you would have to less to feel guilty about. Fire up the doobie.

     
    At 9:31 AM, Anonymous Jerry said...

    I agree that in the triage of negative emotions, murderous rage should be taken care of before guilt.

    I feel guilty all the time. Mostly because I'm not more like Mykull, who I think I don't even believe in.

     
    At 2:15 PM, Anonymous Stew said...

    I've long posited that Mykull does not exist, Jerry. I'd invite him to my housewarming party sometime in September, but I bet he wouldn't come.

     
    At 3:01 PM, Blogger mykull said...

    i would come! in a silver vw beetle! someone left one in front of my neighbor's house--finders keepers!

     
    At 5:41 PM, Anonymous stew said...

    HA! Keep it! Just give me, oh, 7k bucks and you can have it!

    Wait. Actually, if you can drive a stick, I'll take you up on your offer to move MY car to MY new place. Kthanks! (happy chipper face, head tilt, blink blink)

     

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